*sigh*

Coming home has not been all its cracked up to be. I've been incredibly bummed out basically since I got home I think because well, several reasons. I'm going to list them here because once I realize what's wrong with me, I can fix it.

1. I have NOTHING to do. Basically all I've been doing for about the past week is watching TV and sleeping because there's nothing better to do. In Utah I always had SOMETHING to do, or SOMEWHERE to go.

2. All my friends are still at school. That is the problem with BYU getting out so early. I know it makes us more valuable as far as getting internships and jobs goes, but for someone who doesn't have a sweet internship All that means for me is my non-Utah friends are still at college while I'm here. Being bored. Alone

3. Its Raining... Its Pouring. So I want to get good at roller skating and biking. but its basically been raining ever since I got home.

4. My life has no direction. At church people were like "Oh what's your major?" I don't know. Animation has rejected me but they keep telling me I'm almost good enough. If I apply in August, this will be the 4th time I'll be applying. I don't know if I should do it, even if they seem to see potential. they keep asking me to reapply. Just let me in already!!! If I don't apply/don't get in again what will I major in? I don't know. I'm a little lost.

5. My mom is driving me nuts. Here is a conversation we had as we were driving past a little smart car: Mom: You should get a little car like that. I could just see you driving around in something like that"
Me: I want to get an orange beetle and name and name it Julius.
Mom YOU CAN'T GET A CAR THAT IS TOO MUCH MONEY. YOU NEED A JOB you can't afford insurance what about...(
Me: I saw a car online for like $5000, and insurance would be like $200 or so for 6 months.
Mom: What do you need a car for anyway?
... this conversation went on for a long time until my mom just got so mad she didn't say anything else to me.

and then today my sister and my mom are all "Oh you think you're too good for us now"
What?! No. its just really hard for me to have nothing to do or say and just sit around doing nothing.
Also Its hard for me to listen to my mom order me around patience is something that she has nothing of, and I do things at my own pace.

Leaving on a Jet Plane

ok This is going to be a quick post. I am sitting in the terminal waiting for my flight to board currently so I can get back home to Maryland. I brought 2 suitcases, a pretty full backpack, and my laptop case. one of my suitcases, was like 20 pounds over the 50 pound weight limit, so I spent like 20 minutes taking out clothes and moving them around so I could fit everything.
I ended up having to unzip this front pocket thing, stuffing clothes into every crevice of my backpack, and my laptop case, and I was shuffling around with all these extra jackets and when I went through security super slow because I had to use like 3 bins to put all my stuff. I'm sure it was quite pitiful looking. I never thought/wanted to be the kind of person that hated airports, but the hassle of lugging around a gigantic backpack and bags full of haphazardly rearranged clothes sort of changed my mind about the whole ordeal. I need to fly somewhere else sometime this summer to fix my perception.

I miss the days where it didn't matter how much luggage you had. Not that I ever knew those days (I don't think. Did the early 90s have limits on luggage?) I do remember when they used to give you better snacks for free.

I sort of wish I was in an alternate reality where there were no such thing as terrorists, and therefore no annoying airport security measures, and not everyone and their grandmother flew so people like me could bring a bag without having to move all my clothes around, and people would think I'm a cool jet setter.

Post-Holiday Gloom

Ah I am back in the dorms, And I really don't want to be. School stinks. I had fun over vacation, and I am not looking forward to this whole school thing. Being home gave me some hindsight about BYU and It made me wonder what I thought was so fun about this place. The air is too dry. I forgot my face lotion. you can do the math. I don't think anyone really missed me either, because did anyone write on my facebook wall saying how much they missed me like they did with everyone else? No! well no one except my home friends. Grr. Well I see how it is everyone! Now I do not even feel bad for getting lame christmas presents. Ah Clearly I am bitter about this whole being back at school thing. BYU is a good school and everything, I just didn't get to see enough of my home friends to be satisfied. 

Ah, I am so not looking forward to the next four months at this point. Maybe monday will be better...

Thanksgiving

Tuesday: 

On tuesday, after my classes were all done, I saw Twilight again with this girl that I met in the cannon center. we took the bus which I loved because I got a pus pass, and I haven't really had a chance to use it. I loved Twilight its so great, haha. I had gotten an Email about working on the animation that the people in the actual major are working on for Student Emmys which was cool, so directly after the movie, I went to the HFAC and got my assignment, cleanup, and worked on that for a while with this other guy. 

When I was done, I went back to my dorm and since it was like, 8 the cannon was closed, so I ordered a pizza from the Legends Grille and ate like half the pizza. Then, Hannah came over and we chatted for a long time and then I went to bed. 

Wednesday:

I woke up and Joel, the guy from the animation thing called me and said that the guy would be looking over our stuff at like, 12 so I went over there, and basically I did it all wrong. and at 12:45 I went and met my Aunt at the Cannon, and we went to this chinese grocery store to get stuff for pot stickers and then we stopped at this other shop in Spanish Fork so my cousin could get some screws for his tap shoes, and he got some for free since apparently they don't make that type anymore, and the owner hadn't sold those for years. 

Then, once we got to my aunts house, I helped make pies, and pot stickers, and we watched Enchanted. My cousins analyzed that waltz at the end which is apparently NOT a waltz, then we watched National Treasure which is a really good movie, it reminded me of home. We ate some pie that didn't work out so well too. 

Later I worked on my paper and got a few pages done. 

Thursday: 

THANKSGIVING!

My mom called me and was all "OH! you found your phone!" And I was like what? because I definitely did not loose it. Apparently Uncle Scott saw on facebook that I joined this group that was like "I lost my phone" its like facebook culture. If someone loses their phone, they make a group so they can get the numbers they lost. 

For breakfast we had this weird oatmeal. It was good though. I worked on the cleanup that I did a crappy job on before. Watched the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade, well we fast forwarded through all the boring parts. It was funny Kristen Chenoworth (the chick who was Glinda in Wicked, and sings Taylor the Latte Boy)

Um i worked on my paper some more, and Dawnika was there too helping me with it, sort of. Being moral support. Then it was dinner which was delicious. Not quite the same as thanksgiving at home, since there weren't any greens, macaroni and cheese, or waldorf salad, but it was still really good. We watched Kung Fu Panda too, and after Kira and Dasha went to bed, we watched National Treasure 2. Which was good. And we had some delicious pies. 

Friday:

Woke up and had some pancakes which were good. And we discussed the horrible economy and how all these great businesses are failing. Sad day. Then I came back to the empty dorm. it was fantastic not having anyone around and I could play my music as loud as I wanted. I worked on my paper some more, and turned in my fixed cleanups, and was bored for some more. Eventually, Joel called me and was like, Hey lets look over the cleanups. So I went over, and he decided to do the whole thing since there were some inconsistencies and I tried to inbetween this trunk swaying thing. So, we'll see what happens.

 

Then Hannah called, abut going to see Wall-E with a bunch of people at the dollar theater, so we saw that and after that we went to Denny's and ate, it was like, really late. But it was fun. After that we walked back to the dorms, well outside them since it was after 1:30, and we aren't allowed in the opposite gender's places after that time. It was freezing out there. Then we were like talking and stuff and then we watched Hitch and it wasn't over till like, 5:00 in the MORNING! that was totally the latest I've ever stayed up. I promptly went to sleep afterwards. 

Saturday

Woke up around noon. Was in my pajamas for like the whole day almost. I worked on my paper I took a shower and washed my hair, and I Got dressed in my schlumpy clothes. Called the fam. Then went to the cannon center but it was closed :( Abby and Emily were back so we went to the Wyview Creamery and I got tons of stuff with my meal card that wasn't even food. Like batteries, and blank CDs since I have a lot of extra money on my card. We then went to Hollywood video and I bought Music and Lyrics. Love it, and million dollar baby which I've never seen but I had to get it since it was 2 for 10. We then watched Home Alone and ate ice cream. 

Sunday

It was so nice, only and hour of church and I finished my paper, took a really relaxing nap, ate some cannon food, and watched a charlie brown christmas. Everyone was back though and it was kinda sad cause I miss having my own

room.