*sigh*

Coming home has not been all its cracked up to be. I've been incredibly bummed out basically since I got home I think because well, several reasons. I'm going to list them here because once I realize what's wrong with me, I can fix it.

1. I have NOTHING to do. Basically all I've been doing for about the past week is watching TV and sleeping because there's nothing better to do. In Utah I always had SOMETHING to do, or SOMEWHERE to go.

2. All my friends are still at school. That is the problem with BYU getting out so early. I know it makes us more valuable as far as getting internships and jobs goes, but for someone who doesn't have a sweet internship All that means for me is my non-Utah friends are still at college while I'm here. Being bored. Alone

3. Its Raining... Its Pouring. So I want to get good at roller skating and biking. but its basically been raining ever since I got home.

4. My life has no direction. At church people were like "Oh what's your major?" I don't know. Animation has rejected me but they keep telling me I'm almost good enough. If I apply in August, this will be the 4th time I'll be applying. I don't know if I should do it, even if they seem to see potential. they keep asking me to reapply. Just let me in already!!! If I don't apply/don't get in again what will I major in? I don't know. I'm a little lost.

5. My mom is driving me nuts. Here is a conversation we had as we were driving past a little smart car: Mom: You should get a little car like that. I could just see you driving around in something like that"
Me: I want to get an orange beetle and name and name it Julius.
Mom YOU CAN'T GET A CAR THAT IS TOO MUCH MONEY. YOU NEED A JOB you can't afford insurance what about...(
Me: I saw a car online for like $5000, and insurance would be like $200 or so for 6 months.
Mom: What do you need a car for anyway?
... this conversation went on for a long time until my mom just got so mad she didn't say anything else to me.

and then today my sister and my mom are all "Oh you think you're too good for us now"
What?! No. its just really hard for me to have nothing to do or say and just sit around doing nothing.
Also Its hard for me to listen to my mom order me around patience is something that she has nothing of, and I do things at my own pace.

Leaving on a Jet Plane

ok This is going to be a quick post. I am sitting in the terminal waiting for my flight to board currently so I can get back home to Maryland. I brought 2 suitcases, a pretty full backpack, and my laptop case. one of my suitcases, was like 20 pounds over the 50 pound weight limit, so I spent like 20 minutes taking out clothes and moving them around so I could fit everything.
I ended up having to unzip this front pocket thing, stuffing clothes into every crevice of my backpack, and my laptop case, and I was shuffling around with all these extra jackets and when I went through security super slow because I had to use like 3 bins to put all my stuff. I'm sure it was quite pitiful looking. I never thought/wanted to be the kind of person that hated airports, but the hassle of lugging around a gigantic backpack and bags full of haphazardly rearranged clothes sort of changed my mind about the whole ordeal. I need to fly somewhere else sometime this summer to fix my perception.

I miss the days where it didn't matter how much luggage you had. Not that I ever knew those days (I don't think. Did the early 90s have limits on luggage?) I do remember when they used to give you better snacks for free.

I sort of wish I was in an alternate reality where there were no such thing as terrorists, and therefore no annoying airport security measures, and not everyone and their grandmother flew so people like me could bring a bag without having to move all my clothes around, and people would think I'm a cool jet setter.

End of the Semester

So, Its the end of the semester. I'm actually really bummed I'm not staying around for Spring or Summer. I feel like my life is so much more interesting out here. I mean, check it out:

My friends and I played Holi at the festival of colors!



I made a delicious quiche. With so much cream and bacon and cheese. All by myself! I also made an apple pie. No photos of that though... It was even more delicious


I applied to animation again. Good heavens I want to know if I have a major or not right now. (that top one got oddly cut off. oh well)

I was an extra in a cowboy movie. We went to a Saloon! how cool is that?

and besides that, I went classic skating and had cool fun dates and I made friends with fantastic people. I'm really going to miss everything and I think it would be fun to stay in the summer for a cool chiller atmosphere. I'm trying to get excited about heading back to Maryland. perhaps I'll make a list of why its awesome there, because I can only think of like, 2 things right now...