Disillusioned

Oh boy, so two day ago I started a REAL JOB. None of this babysitting business even though I made bank doing that. No. I work in this Property management company, and I am some kind of assistant or something. I answer calls sometimes, and put invoices in numerical order. And also read off numbers of those invoices to this guy who probably doesn't actually need me to do that. Mostly I just read articles online so it looks like I am not being dumb being on facebook, although yesterday I did beat my personal best score for tetris. I also played Sudoku. I am learning a lot about the swine flu, and Obama's Presidency. And about museums.

In this endeavor, I have discovered something about myself. I REALLY dislike not doing anything. I feel like I would rather be using my time, doing something USEFUL. Like I don't know... getting better at my drawing skills. I have to say, I am disillusioned by Real Jobs. I can't imagine why on earth anyone would ever invent such a mindless job, let alone do one day after day. I am glad that (Lord willing) I am going into a field in which I will be doing something fun and creative with my time.


Voila the art that illustrates the life.

Just FYI Its not so bad that I have this job Per se. It irks me that I have to do essentially nothing for 5 1/2 hours a day when I could be working at something that will ultimately help my future. Ineed time to work on improving my art skills so I can grow up and NOT have a job where I sit at a desk and waste time all day.

I sort of wish I had gone into retail. If I worked at the mall at least I'd get a discount.

Goodbye BYU

Today I came home from BYU, and it was really sad. Everyone was so nice, and helpful and great here. I am really going to miss going to Divine Comedy and going out and playing stupid games in the middle of the night with everyone, and being in the Animation Lab, and generally having things to do with my free time. Now I just have to discipline myself and draw during all that downtime.

PS I was invited to Reapply in August.

The Bridge Between us is a Rainbow.

OK first of all, Wow, I have gotten such the inspirational positive support for everything. Its true that animation people are the best kind of people. I appreciate it SO much, you have no idea. It has made my 'wallowing in self pity' period super short lived, and has inspired me to work super hard this summer on my art so I will most definitely get in. I needed a year (semester? we'll see once I get the letter. I SO hope they ask me to reapply in August) to work on my generals since I was stupid and didn't get American Heritage out of the way last semester. I took Sociology instead which was good, but unnecessary.

Anyway, This is so a blessing in disguise. I bet I didn't get into animation because God knew that if I didn't work on generals, I would spend all my time doing animation stuff, and not work hard in my other classes and that would be BAD.

I don't know if that's true or not, but I like to think so.

Anyway, I saw High School Musical 17 again. Starring Zac Efron. Not going to lie. The previews make it look really stupid, but it was way funnier than I expected. I thoroughly enjoyed it. Also, seeing the Zefron playing someone different than Troy Bolton a la High School Musical was really refreshing. You can tell it was made for a wider audience and It was generally a very happy surprise.



The only thing that bugs me about Zefron is that his eyes never seem to be looking at anything. Like , I know his eyes are pointed at people, but there is like, no connection. Wierd. I bet he is secretly a really hot robot.

I'll try and post some art next time. Since that is my new goal, to regale you with great masterpieces. Sweet.

Packing up all your stuff is super lame just FYI

Sorry everybody.

Sorry about my freak out the past two entries fellow bloggers. I was sort of freaking out because...well...I have a lot of anxiety about doing well in school and the idea of having only a 3.0 sort of revolts me. Also being in animation is the only career I envision for myself seriously. Or else a globe trekker. but I don't think they offer a globe trekking major. Anyway I've decided to post some figure drawings to get some input.





That is all I feel like posting right now. give me some advice because obviously I need it. Cynthia said I needed to work on legs and arms, and I see what she means. I sort of stink at them. Voila my summer project.

Well that Sucks

Oh my gosh. I just got my grades for my figure drawing class. Surprise I got an 83% which in that class means a B-!!!!! I am SO upset about that. How does someone get a B-? Honestly, on the first day of class he said he was going to be judging based on Improvement. And HELLO I have improved A LOT. He said I need to learn to control my strokes, He told me to lighten up. That is hard for me because I naturally have a really tough grip on stuff. Just ask my partner for Social dance. Either way, I thought I was getting better at that. But apparently not. And apparently this lowered my points a lot. B-. Man why is my life so awful lately? I need a vacation. I am sort of freaking out a little about my grades. I feel like i am probably going to get straight b's and that is unacceptable. I am about to have some major anxiety issues I think


Here are my grades so far.
Social Dance: B+
Figure Drawing: B-
Film:??
French: I have around an 88% I NEED to get an A on the Final to possibly get an A- I don't know if that is going to happen though.
Book of Mormon: I also have an 88% in book of mormon. same deal as french. Still don't know if thats going to happen
Art History: ??

I feel so much like a failure right now. You know who also was not accepted into art school?

Thats right ADOLF HITLER!!! And we all know what happened to him. He became an Evil Dictator.

I'm just saying.

commence panic attack.

FAIL

Ah, so I am like, 99% sure I didn't make it into the animation program. I sort of thought I wouldn't make it, because my drawing skills weren't as strong as other people's. I mean I'm not AWFUL, but I'm not the best either. I mean, I can see improvements but still that really means nothing. The only thing I had going for me was my killer work ethic. But, even though I have work ethic coming out of my ears, and the faculty liked my work on Blind Men and the Elephant, I guess thats not enough. I really feel like if I would have gotten in I would improve way more, being surrounded by all of these animation people

So now I have a problem. I am not really sure I should apply again. I don't know how much I CAN improve with the same teacher. He kind of sucked. So Now I need a fallback. Thinking about it now, I don't really know what I would WANT to do. All of the other majors seem like a whole lot of work, in the form of paper writing and a lot of stuff that is boring. Animation is a lot of work, but it is work that I am interested in. Does anyone have any ideas what a good major would be for me? I am stumped. This is when being a Jack of All Trades but Master of None really stinks.

Should I try again next year? I dunno. I don't really want to waste a year if I don't get in. But I also don't really know what to do with all that time.

Give me some input!

Shoes, Animation, and Life

I love these shoes. I think they are SO cute Link And they are only $30 bucks. I really want to get them Maybe I will. I need some shoes that color since I had flats that were that color, and I totally walked a hole in them. It makes it hard to match with a couple of my outfits without those shoes. ModCloth.com is a truly great website. If anyone wants to make me very happy, just get me a gift certificate for that store. Oh My gosh. Mom. PLEASE tell me you want me to buy these shoes. I haven't gone shopping in SO long. I haven't set foot in a mall since December. My wardrobe is boring, and I don't have shoes that go with the springy weather, since I was a fool and only brought winter clothes. Not that its really warm here. But still.

Animation. Well, my animation portfolio is due on Wednesday. It is kind of freaking me out. I kind of have this feeling/fear that I won't get in, and that will be really sad because its A) The only job I think I would be happy doing, since I get impassioned easily. When something interests me I glom onto it like no other, but I also get bored of things really quickly. I am involved in a project now and I'm still fully invested in it which is rare for me, because usually when I get really into things, I loose interest and move on. That is different for this project. I still am really interested. And B) I know tons of people in the animation program, and people always mistake me for being in it. And it would be SO sad if I didn't get in.

Hm I'm being really whiny right now. but I am seriously freaked out.

Life. Well, the other day they showed Dean Duncan, the guy that teaches my film class, and one of the faculty members that is in charge of this project, the credit plates that I did for the blind men and the elephant, and he was so impressed. He was like "You did this?" And he really liked the storybook quality that it had. He even asked if I would still be interested in doing more of these Children's Media Initiative films because he said they had another one they were planning on doing, and he liked the style I did the credits in and thought that style would be good in this other movie. He told me to keep in touch with them if I didn't get into the program. Yeah! I'm so thrilled about that!

Here's the Video


Its funnier when you watch this one with it